reflections

As I reflect on this past year I feel as though I grew in many ways. That's not to say I don't have much more growth in store for me.

For one thing, I used to try to control EVERYTHING. Control, however, is a funny thing. In my case it doesn't just add the normal I'm-a-perfectionist stress. It causes me additional symptoms to my conditions- Fibromyalgia and Sjogren's Syndrome. I experience greater fatigue, additional pain to what is already chronic and, well, bad.

Control is misleading and overrated. It doesn't allow us to flow with the groove of life and it's kind of rude.

Instead I tried to allow people to help me. I took on teaching again- a situation that by it's very nature requires flexibility. I accepted others growth and change better than I ever had before. I tried to go with flow.

I even ventured out of my comfort zone and entered writing competitions. I will no longer let fear control me or let my need for perfection hinder me.

A I start a new year, with everyone else, I plan to be more accepting. Accepting of what I can do physically and accepting of those I love. I can let go of needing to do everything perfectly. It destroys.

In 2011 I plan to relax and just be. Not be afraid and not be controlling. Just be loving, peaceful, creative and good to my body and mind. That is how I will be good to those I love.

I hope my rambling reflections helped someone reflect on his/her own life. I've learned a lot and I certainly have A LOT more to learn. But not in a rush. Easy and Breezy.

happy new year. may you find blessings and joy.

peace and love,
sunee